Last night I sat here and listen to music and came across a Bible verse that say we must forgive those who done wrong in our lives and that instantly convicted me to my soul and thought I would never do something I did.

As I sat here thinking and pondering I took my pen and notebook and even whiteout lol.

And wrote to a man I thought I would never ever write to again or even speak too.

As I remember my past life with my parents I was never liked or even loved by my parents and told I was an accident I live my life everyday with such resent and hatred in my deep soul and so I decided to finally write this man I knew as my dad a hateful individual a who verbally said things that broke me.

I lived for so long thinking back as I wrote to him and I told him I love him and forgive him because I feel God telling me to let go of hatred and stop pondering why I was treated the way I was.

I think this man as an enemy for many a years and just could never forgive him and not thinking me being a pastor I am holding hate in my heart because this man broke my life and I blamed myself for so long I never realized how much that would destroy me as an human being life is just so hard living with such brokenness and resentment for him.

I hope when I send this letter to him he will open his heart to the gospel message I wrote to him because I am trying to be a better person now my chains are broken and I have been set free from my bonds of hate and hurt and brokenness I always told myself I would never speak to that man for the rest of my life and he caused quite abit of pain and anguish in my life that I even out of hurt treated my family the way he treated me I feel so shameful for it that it actually feels so good to get this out of my heart.

I want to do what’s right in Gods ways I never wanna hold hate in my heart ever again I want to live peaceful and be thankful for Gods mercy in my life but now is the time God will work in that man’s life and hopefully he will help him see I need Christ and will except him into his own heart.

Life will be better now and maybe now I will not worry about what life was like in my past because I have such a bright amazing future and I will be stronger in my preaching and as I keep love for my family I will actually feel I’m somebody and not that nobody I felt I was so long ago.

Listen friends people may do wrong to you in life by abusing you and verbally saying things that hurt you but hear me and hear me Good God Loves you and his love is never ending life is difficult when you hold on to pasts that you don’t need to hold onto anymore life is too hard to be resenting those who hurt our testimony just break free of those chains and be set free let God do everything for you to make your mind calm and no more pain in your heart will be there any longer.

Praise God for his Love and mercy now I must send this letter to him and I hope it will open his eyes and will ask God for the forgiveness he needs for our broken family it’s up to Gods mighty word to convict and change those who have hurt our testimony let me tell you my day has been brighter and I fell so overjoyed by God protecting me and putting me in the ministry thank the LORD for being so long suffering I am so happy to write this testimony today that I hope it will help somebody out there do the same thing I did.

I just pray it will find him and he will read it.

Please pray it will get him to change.